Move On Diary #3

I keep walking on the same path.
I keep saying the same words.
I keep singing the same song.
I keep doing the same mistakes
I keep falling on the same whole.
I keep hiding.
I keep faking.
I keep hating.

This is PMS swinging mood.
I hate it.

I mean, I don't really get myself right now. I'm the one that is stranger to my own mind. I did thing I didn't wan to. I fail things I really want to. Life keep playing the jokes. And I hate how I'm easily get into things.
I hate my soft vulnerable hearts. And I remember now why somewhere i the past I pushed myself being so cold and ignore this kind of things. Because I hate this. I hate this hurting feeling because what I think is true, apparently it's not!

How can you trust your feeling, if you know that the feeling can go wrong?
How?